HEART BREAK # 2

I always seem to come here when I am very down and out.
My babes have flown from the nest and they have taken part of me with them.

My first heart break was when my youngest got married. While getting everything organized for the wedding I didn't realize that now she was getting ready to fly. It hit me on the wedding day only, but consoled myself thinking, she is entering into the next phase in life and that she will be my neighbour and also at calling distance. Still I miss her, though I see her everyday and spend sometime with her, pour all my grumblings, rumblings and frustration to her. She is supportive of me , what ever it is, irrespective of whether I am wrong or right. She is like her father, take control of situations and I have great confidence in her. In the sense that what ever adversaries come her way, she will face them, as she is very mature for her age, intelligent and can take decisions and stand by it. She is a no nonsense type. So I don't worry about her.

My second heart break which I still am unable to come to terms with is my eldest moving away from home to set home with her friend. she just decided out of the blue and like lightening moved out. The talk of moving out is not new, she kept telling, when ever I was sore with her I used to tell to move out thinking that she'll know I was just stating it without really wanting her to go. My weakness with regard to her is that maybe I always underestimate her - not her intelligence but emotions. She can get carried away by any sob story, anyone who gives attention, show a little care or flatter, she will go out of the way to pamper then. My fear is that people take advantage of her, as it has happened in the past; several times but still she has not learn t a lesson and go through unnecessary pain.
I miss her at home 'cos when she is around its Diwali - all the lights will be switched on, fans on and loud music and her singing along with it.

Maybe I miss my two girls because of they are my pillars of strength, advisers, console rs, patient listeners (to my rantings) and also they pamper me. still.....................